I think I am going to start writing in the other journal, notebook paper, because I just want to get shit together finally, but I know I'm not going to be able to do it this weekend because I am going to be very busy. Tonight I get to see Liz finally and I haven't see her in so long. All that I have seen of her is what she's been writing in her online journal. I want to see her face to face because I miss that face of hers. I am so excited for her and can't wait to see her performance. I think she's a perfect actress and I think she should do plays more often...honestly. Saturday, I have to clean my bathroom, work, and in between all of that I have to go buy tickets for my friends so we can see Shallow Hal. I want to plan stuff because I never get to plan anything. All my other friends are always in charge and I don't want to be the under dog. Sunday, I'm going shopping with Jenni and Megan. They're giving me a "makeover" because I told them how I have no style sense and how I really need some clothes that I actually like. They're so nice to take me. I hope they shop for themselves also. I'm sure they will. Also I hope they don't pick out some skippy little top and say,"try this on it will look so cute on you." I'll just say, "No way."

Strange, but I have been actually listening to Michael Jackson music. His songs are very popish. I really like dancing alone. Especially to jumpy, groovy music like Jackson's. There is just something about dancing alone when no one is there. I think it has been my anti-depressant lately especially with all the mess that's been going on.

Also, my creative writing teacher gave us a good idea. Well, he didn't really give us the idea, he kind of showed us a book with a great idea. This author wrote a book with all his thoughts and dreams that happen right when you wake up and kind of half asleep. You know when that happens when you think of some really great idea right before you fall asleep and then in the morning you forget it. I do that all the time. It's really a great idea. I think I am going to start writing like that in my red journal that I got. I still haven't written in it because I want to make the first entry exactly how I feel and I guess make it look perfect. You know start out with a fresh clean start. Anyway, I'll type later.

Maybe I should get rid of this whole online journal thing and just write in my writing or real journal. My red journal at home. Real writing.

in computer business now. i feel a little bit more awake I guess because this hour i don't have to type up a big long paper that won't be my best work of writing. i like typing like this in lowercase.

also last hour i started a new journal for creative writing class because i didn't feel like typing anything. i just felt so lazy and tired and still feel like that. i really wish i was at home in my nice warm bed underneath the covers, but instead i'm in dreary school. stinky.

Feeling really tired. Have a lot of homework to do and I have to work tonight. Really really tired that I don't even feel like writing anything anymore. I got asked out by someone again. Haven't given them an answer. I just don't even feel like dealing with it. in creative writing right now. bye